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Elemental
04:22
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freight trains once ran down my street
noisy gods of iron and heat
rain and steam and sound and speed
all moving
possibilities
now the tracks are overgrown
the trains don’t roll past here no more
endings should be sharp
and clear
I hope some kid waved to
the engineer
in a world where trains don’t matter
and changes push things faster
or rip ‘em from the ground
because they move too slow
you’re elemental
like a woman
you’re essential
like the sea
you’re delectable
like an avocado
and I’m insatiable
that’s me
the buildings drift in through the fog
ancient horses drag the log
I tell myself it’s just the job
but it’s
real life
the accident can happen then
the wreckage that becomes the man
the movie screens inside my head
I hope I sleep well when I’m dead
in a life thrown out of balance
with screeching noise and silence
time plays the joker
when only time will do
a nation built on excess buys
glaciers melt but stocks still rise
weapons fire people die
and it’s only Monday
politicians puff their chests
dominant males take what’s best
men in white coats raise the bar
Einstein’s brain is in some jar
I don’t know how he could’ve figured
time gets small but space gets bigger
‘cause years are whipping past me
like days used to do
freight trains once ran down my street
now the tracks are clogged with weeds
soon they’ll pour ‘em with concrete
noisy gods are obsolete
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2. |
Shaker Chair (live)
04:41
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Like a Feather
when I was a boy
I studied the sky
wondering who’s up there
and how long and why
but the more that I looked
the less that I heard
sometimes I still glance upward
expecting some word
Moses he walked 40 years in the sand
looking for something
he might understand
god it must have been hard
at the end of the day
to go to his flock
and find something to say
they call them dreams
because they might come true
it’s important to me
how about you
we careen through this life
on the edge of control
like a feather aloft
when the wind starts to blow
now I’m all grown up
it’s not what it seems
I still glance upwards
I have the same dreams
the one I like best
is where I rule the world
I buy everyone snickers
and kiss my best girl
in my next life
I don’t know where I’ll be
I might be a candle
I might just be me
but something simple and restful
white clouds in the air
I know I’ll still be smiling
if I’m still somewhere
Shaker Chair
I’m just a plain shaker chair
propped up in the corner
I don’t know who put me there
no pad straight legs straight back
stripped to bare essentials
but there’s nothing that I lack
I may be very simple
but form follows function fine
it’s been 200 years
but I’m in fashion at this time
and I’m just a plain shaker chair
well I’m a naugahyde barcalounger
and I live to recline
I hold your fat white butt in comfort
while you channel surf and dine
I’ve got potato chips and pretzels
in my crevices and cracks
spilled lite beer and pizza
and other nasty snacks
you might laugh at my morphology
but I am just what I see
I’m a naugahyde barcalounger
lay your sweaty flesh on me
well I’m a king size heated waterbed
and I don’t get no respect
people think I’m only good
for cheesy motel sex
but mister I’m here to tell you
I hold a family of five
while mom and dad read stories
to the little ones at night
and I’m so warm and comfy
oh they tell me that I am
that dad can’t stay awake
while reading green eggs and ham
they ride on gentle waves of vinyl
‘till they all fall fast asleep
then daddy carries the little ones
from the waterbed
to the other bed
it’s a bunk bed
it’s so functional
so impersonal
not like a waterbed
then mom and dad make sleepylove
in the waterbed
well
I am just a pair of sox behind the bedroom couch
I know that I’m not furniture
but I just felt left out
I’m just a plain shaker chair
god I wish that you would sit on me
you don’t even know I’m there
I know I can’t compete
with mister naugahyde barcalounger
or a waterbed with heat
but maybe 50 years from now
when the waterbed’s run dry
the barcalounger’s come unstuffed
and it’s just you and I
you’ll sit
in a plain
shaker chair
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3. |
Like a Feather
04:10
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when I was a boy
I studied the sky
wondering who’s up there
and how long and why
but the more that I looked
the less that I heard
sometimes I still glance upward
expecting some word
Moses he walked 40 years in the sand
looking for something
he might understand
god it must have been hard
at the end of the day
to go to his flock
and find something to say
they call them dreams
because they might come true
it’s important to me
how about you
we careen through this life
on the edge of control
like a feather aloft
when the wind starts to blow
now I’m all grown up
it’s not what it seems
I still glance upwards
I have the same dreams
the one I like best
is where I rule the world
I buy everyone snickers
and kiss my best girl
in my next life
I don’t know where I’ll be
I might be a candle
I might just be me
but something simple and restful
white clouds in the air
I know I’ll still be smiling
if I’m still somewhere
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4. |
The Plane Ride From Hell
05:24
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5. |
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you and I
we threw things at the sky
we never told a lie
we laughed in a pig’s eye
oh what delight
all that groping in the night
all that love and sex and rhyme
all that energy and time
we closed bars
we made love in cars
we broke strings on guitars
a love that knew no shame
was it a dream
was it really you and me
mad dogs dancing in the rain
you and I
watch these years go by
we’ve seen some old friends die
but oh what fun
child number one
one and three look just like me
two looks like you
we don’t get out much
we’re too tired end of day
I’ll go and rent a move
how’s that sound
a foreign film
may by Luis Bunuel
with mad dogs dancing in the rain
and so I can control
these wanderings of my heart
but life explodes as art
and art exposes pain
I don’t recall the ticket
that I bought to ride this train
with mad dogs dancing in the rain
you and me
make a cup of tea
maybe watch some bad TV
god we’re such bores
but you still play your drums
while I read about mutual funds
because we don’t want to be
standard or poor
when I can’t sleep
I pour a drink and watch your face
your perfect female form
ecstasy and grace
tonight it’s cloudy
crack of thunder in the air
baby I’ll be Fred Astaire
you can just be you
but wear that pretty cotton dress
that made me learn your name
we’ll burn every red light out
south of memory lane
I hated gardening
but now I can’t complain
mad dogs dancing in the rain
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6. |
Dave
06:07
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Dave was wild and crazy
of that there is no doubt
he partied hard and talked too loud
and threw his weight about
of all my friends from high school
Dave was voted most likely to die young
in a car crash
or a drug deal
or with a gun
but it wasn’t speed that killed him
it was cancer’s harsh unbroken glare
that stopped him cold and bony
god knows it just wasn’t fair
he’d just pulled his life together
gotten married and went back to school
found his peace
and laid aside the dual
he could be loud and obnoxious
he could be sweet and kind
he was often full of bullshit
but I never heard him lie
he lived his life so full it sometimes
spilled back out on the ground
there was never any doubt
when Dave was around
when I think what happened to him
he was just one year older than me
the wheels turn and the highway burns
the black crow in the tree
he died with grace
and spirt
and strength
but he died just the same
I doubt I’d do as well
if cancer came
but oh you swear
it ain’t fair it ain’t fair it ain’t fair
well who ever said it was fair
and oh you do what you can
to get by to get by to get by
and you hope that you survive
well I think about him often
my old friend who is not here
when I’m fixing cars
or throwing darts
or sitting round drinking beer
in a way it makes me grateful
for each new day that comes
but it’s like looking down a loaded gun
well I don’t believe in Jesus
and I don’t believe in sin
and I don’t believe that he paid a price
for the wild life that he lived
but if there’s a god who cuts these deals
and decides who lives and dies
then there but for the grace of god go I
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born on Long Island
1958
prefabricated living
outside Grumman’s gate
the cold war was heating up
the space race was too
aerospace was booming
dad engineered the moon
mister middle class suburban
what sustains your dreams
is it just this slice of paradise
and the stability it brings
are you thinking ‘bout insurance
and barbecues and bikes
do you like suburban life
the house on Long Island
bought on the G.I. bill
nineteen five at four percent
behind a great big hill
stingrays and stick shifts
American design
longer lower wider
hear those turbines whine
mister middle class suburban
what sustains your dreams
when you were a child
didn’t you lay awake and dream
what did you think of all my rocket ships
and candy bars and toys
or was it all just too much noise
we knew the names of astronauts
the Beatles and the Mets
McCartney screamed
Swoboda slugged
Grissom burned to death
Cronkite told the truth
Johnson told the lies
lit the tunnel with his light
and vanished in disguise
I’d ride my bike past potato farms that practically sprouted track housing
another week another subdivision
I’d glide past rows of slab ranch houses
Mustangs and Impalas in the driveway
color tvs and dishwashers inside
everything so new it practically squeaked
I’d run inside for meat potatoes and situation comedy
then run back outside to play in the insular lily white warm dark Long Island night
where we’d play stickball ‘till nine
and walk to school the next day without fear
man there must’ve been eighty kids my age on my street alone
beehive
skinny tie
white shirt
white bread winner
postwar baby boomer melting pot
of other white people
different
but not different enough to frighten anyone
was it really all that bad?
when I went back to Long Island
the little house looked good
something was of value there
some good things took root
the big hill looked much lower though
perspective’s a funny thing
age might make you higher
but it’s all dead reckoning
mister middle class suburban
what sustains your dreams
can you walk that final mile
or are you cracking at the seams
if it all went south tomorrow
would you have chosen right
when you look up at the night
can you see your rocket’s flight
you gave your kids a good
life
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8. |
Religion
05:29
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I was raised Jewish
it was not my choice
I asked the four questions
but it was not my voice
I went to hebrew school
stared at the walls
I was bar mitzvahed
I hated it all
so it’s no surprise
I married my wife
she’s a lapsed Catholic
the church changed her live
a nun with a ruler
her knees black and blue
twelve years of Catholic school
she marries a Jew
oh religion
what are you for
I’m an iconoclast
in a life that’s soon past
a confirmed agnostic
in a world that’s so sure
for our wedding we gathered
before the powers that be
no priest no rabbi
just a justice of the peace
then a short hebrew prayer
a quick Irish toast
and my uncle Herbie
sang my wild Irish rose
now we got kids
and they want the truth
what about santa?
some guys in red suits
but we do christmas and chanukah
with candles and lights
it’s an orgy of presents
I guess that’s all right
oh religion
is there anything more
presents are fine
and I like the red wine
but still I’m agnostic
in a world that’s so sure
so what do we tell them
when the big questions roll
what about god
and faith and a soul
I can’t just dismiss these
like santa’s sad lot
maybe faith
is a present
that I never got
I’m just one parent
I’m not Jesus Christ
but I don’t need religion
to teach wrong from right
you just tolerate difference
respect everyone
if there’s family values
then hate isn’t one
at least not in our house
oh religion
what are you for
I’m an iconoclast
in a life that’s soon past
a confirmed agnostic
in a world that’s so sure
oh religion
best examine your core
because mountains of hate
have been heaped on your plate
Jerusalem Lebanon
Ireland on and on
way too much pain
still gets done in your name
and so I’m agnostic
in a world that’s so sure
what will the kids think
about mom and dad
will they tank us for the Sunday school
they never had
or will they damn us
for raising them so
rootless and barren
and spiritually hollow
I don’t know
I was raised Jewish
It was not my choice
but it’s who I am now
it’s part of my voice
my children can find their way
home through the night
until they find god
I’ll leave on the light
oh religion
I’d crack open your door
but I’m an arrogant ass
with big questions to ask
and so I’m agnostic
in a world that’s so sure
oh religion
what are you for
I’m an iconoclast
in a life that goes fast
a confirmed agnostic
in a world that’s so
sure
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9. |
Montana
04:40
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I guess I jumped without a chute
I was drunk and she was cute
I saw her and my soul began to bleed
goodness knows what she saw in me
the first time was like you dream about
hair flying clothes lying all about
a love like that could kill a man
it never happened that way again
I think Montana just might be
just the thing I need for me
love comes like a swarm of bees
you’re red and stinging when it leaves
I won’t see you in a cloudless sky
as eight hundred miles roll by
out of the corner of my eye
she must’ve been just testing out her wings
young girls do that kind of thing
young men dream of being where I was
when I caught that first upward gust
the random element and timing’s chance
flaws in the crystal brought us to this dance
love like a flash flood like snow in may
came out of nowhere and went away
I think Montana just might be
just the thing I need for me
winter comes in her pretty white dress
why’s it leave such an awful mess
I won’t see you in a cloudless sky
as eight hundred miles roll by
out of the corner of my eye
maybe we just need the pain
of something offered and pushed away
love the needle
love the blade
love the damage
you have made
you can’t hold time you can’t hold fire
you can’t hold truth if you’re a goddam liar
you can’t hold dreams if you don’t dream bold
she wasn’t ever mine to hold
there’s some things I should see
but my hindsight ain’t what it used to be
look there on the edge of tears
you look right at it and it disappears
I think Montana just might be
just the thing I need for me
comfort comes in strange degrees
isolation if you please
I won’t see you in a cloudless sky
as eight hundred miles roll by
out of the corner of my eye
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10. |
Sense of History
02:54
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my earliest memory
was when they shot John Kennedy
the year was 1963
I was five
I know that I was much too young
to realize what had been done
but I remember ‘cause I saw my old man cry
it was a multimedia tragedy
it was blood and guts on live tv
it was death in living color
what a scream
now I see his face everywhere I look
on the postage stamps and matchbooks
and I think that he could explain to me
why we need a sense of history
the next ten years jumped and twitched
like somebody hit the fast forward switch
it was hard to be a hippy
at thirteen
but I tried and I tried
I was no one’s fool
I drew peace signs on the walls at school
while I watched them count up bodies on tv
it was an Indochinese tragedy
it was Chet Huntley on NBC
it was death in living color
what a scream
all our heroes went the way
of MLK and RFK
and I think that they could explain to me
why we need a sense of history
you know the media loves
a political assassination
and I wonder who the next one’s gonna be
I’m as young as I can be
and still remember John Kennedy
but history repeats itself
I’m afraid
that somebody must’ve seen me cry
the day I learned that John Lennon died
I got mushroom clouds and needles in my dreams
it was a multimedia tragedy
it was blood and guts on MTV
it was death in living color
what a scream
now I’m scared of guns
and I’m afraid of the dark
and I see his face in Central Park
and I think that he could explain to me
something about a sense of history
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11. |
Until I Scare Myself
05:03
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middle class middle aged
middle of the road
mister wonder what they done to you
center right center stage
center can not hold
senses what they took away from you
I can tell just by your talking
I can see it in your eyes
no one lied
but no one told the truth
I can smell it in your destiny
I can find it out tonight
I can look until I scare myself
for you
tell me secrets tell me lies
tell me what you will
take me to the surface of my smile
moving pictures moving parts
never standing still
I wonder what’s gone all here all the while
there’s poetry emotion
a soliloquy of tears
there’s strangers in the shadows
that I knew
there’s time to find the answers
if you want to do it right
and look until I scare myself
for you
it’s still life with roses now
no matter where you turn
you can’t escape the boundaries
of your being
I spend too much time seeing things
evaporate from life
and staring as my television screams
there’s an answer to your questions
if you keep them to yourself
there’s a way out of these tunnels
that are you
if intransigent suggestions
become the relics of the fight
then I’ll look until I scare myself
for you
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12. |
Benediction
01:49
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I woke up again today
so I guess that I’m still here
the anvil did not fall down
on my head as I had feared
oh god I love my wife these kids
but I can’t stop the train
can we all come back tomorrow
and play with these toys again
oh god don’t take it away from me
oh god don’t take it away from me
I’ll do anything that you want me to
anything but believe in you
oh god don’t take it away
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13. |
Shaker Chair (original)
04:01
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I am an old man
who dreams about trains
red and black railroads
that visit my brain
I can’t explain how
I don’t know just why
but I sometimes hear voices
that call from the sky
we ran in the rain we swore at the sea
we walked out of time
and we sang out of key
now I’m just an old man who dreams about trains
and you’re just a little boy lost in the rain
don’t ask me no questions
I’ll tell you no lies
but the seasons spin ‘round
as we stare at the sky
but the moon still goes down
the sun still gets up
so you’d better chase rainbows
and go fall in love
I slept well last night
I dreamed about tracks
I saw a red freight train
who’s boxcars were black
it ran ever on
I started to cry
then I woke up laughing
and I did not know why
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Rob Siegel Boston, Massachusetts
Rob Siegel is well-known in Boston folk music circles as an innovative songwriter who draws from his idyllic yet stressed-
out middle-class suburban existence and produces memorable, intelligent, well-crafted songs.
His first new CD in 14 years, "A Landscape of Ghosts," will be out in April, with a CD release show at Club Passim on Monday April 30th.
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